"Running running, getting nowhere."
This is what I wrote in one of my status updates more than a year ago. Not wanting to nag about life because it's simply useless, but I've lost my sense of direction. I don't know where I'm going and what will happen.
Last year I was an active person, used to socialise a lot, go out with people and take part in social events, wear nice blazers for the university and enjoyed giving presentations, I had big dreams of doing a lot of research, all I was thinking of was progress.
But who I am now? A person locking herself in her room rarely going out and not having any dreams anymore. People keep telling me things will get better, but all I'm think of is those spirals in the song "Windmills of Your Mind". I feel things repeat themselves.
All I want for this year is me having an aim and working hard on it.